"Melancholy and The Infinite Sadness" was a Smashing Pumpkin's song played for me once upon a time by Orlean's granddaughter, Angela. It truly describes my mood these days. Oh things with the fella are good. We are both impatient, but it is good. Its not that.

I am unsure if I am fit company for anyone right now. I know I have been avoiding people at work, spending my mornings driving aimlessly through the city, going back and sitting near my apartment, the one I used to live in in 1999. That is when

I do not know. Ask me again in 80some days.